The Truth part I
I have been meaning to write this for so long. SO long. It has been in the back of my mind, asked by my parents, teachers, family, even society for all of my life and i’ve never written it down. JEEZ. What’s the deal?
I’ll tell you whats the deal.
I constantly find myself worrying over, as Betsy calls it, “worldly things that cannot be solved” and then go on a tangent writing about them. OH THEY CAN BE SOLVED. though maybe only for me personally. some day.
BUT.
My point is that i am very often distracting myself. HOWEVER, maybe i can only solve these distractions by focusing on the thing that i should be focused on at this point in my life.
Let’s be REALLY, directly, out-on-the-table selfish about this next entry, shall we? yes okay.
Its a simple enough question.
but not very many people ask it to themselves, much less, put any thought into it.
I have been thinking about it exclusively, almost obsessively, for about the last …ehh…year. maybe? Yeah, oh no wait. year and a half about.
I have been thinking this question to myself and going over my answer with very careful thought for the past year and a half.
I should have been thinking about it for all of my life. Cause this is my life.
QUESTION:
What do you want?
Simple enough right? But the funny thing is, i never knew what i really wanted. to do. to be. to have. I just always knew what i like. Thats an easy question to answer.
The other funny thing is, that i am aware, i still may not completely know what i want. THOUGH, i believe i’ve reached a point where i have a dang good idea. And even then, i can say, that what i want this day may not be what i want tomorrow. HOWEVER, the experiences ive faced during my life so far have shaped wants that i now know to be concrete.
ask yourself that question please. be honest. be not aware of society. be not aware of this world.
What do YOU want?
