hhh’okay so….
So, as much as everybody is different, everybody is the same. THEEE SAME. Everyone in some way or another, has had the same experiences: loss, heartbreak, success, failure, pain, happiness….etc. The sequences in which they happen to an individual and the particular way the person deals with these experiences makes everyone a hair different here and there. Essentially, we’re the same. We all want love, to love and be loved. To be liked. To be wanted. To be happy. We, everyone deal with life in various ways….
One thing we all HAVE to have is a purpose. A reason to get up in the morning. We have to live for something. Some people live for other people, some for their passion, others for their God, some for their addictions, and more for their job. We must give ourselves reasons for occurrences. Teach our children stories, about Santa Claus, Easter Buunny, to make them be good…to give them something to hope for in this world.
As children, we give ourselves the incredulous idea that adults know everything and when we grow up we will be something, SOMEONE. We do grow up but still ask the same question. I have many times asked myself, “Carolyn, you’re 20 years old….what do you want to be when you grow up?” Here we are, grown up. I’m 20, halfway to 40, 6 months till im 21, almost 25, halfway to 50. I look at the other grown-ups, who are more grown up than me….40yrs old, say. They just LOOK grown up….WE ALL DO…we just look grown up. I can name a few 40 yr olds who have less of an idea of who they are than I do. Dang. THAT’S scary.
Now we realize, adults are not superhuman, they know nothing. absolutely nothing. Yes wisdom. But when it comes to YOU and YOUR struggles and beliefs, they can talk your ear off, but it’s YOU who must pick and choose what you want to believe to get you through the day…..to get out of bed in the morning. You are alone. When you die, no one will be with you feeling it too (if they are, they dont care how you feel, they’re dying too for goodness sake), you will die alone. SO. Now we’ve come to a fork in the road…or perhaps many.
What do you do? Get depressed and think you’re messed up and feel like no one else knows….go to a doctor who will give you some drugs? Take up drinking? It does a real good job of making everything calm down. Smoke? Need that caffeine everyday? How about some of those “bad” drugs? Let’s just gloss over and slip through our lives and not know ourselves. We could constatnly have a girlfriend or boyfriend and take on their personality traits and make yourself feel like you know who you are: always depending upon that other person. But then, they break your heart. Now you’re back to square one. Depressed, and no one knows how you really feel…you contemplate suicide. Or you choose to lay your life at the feet of a God. But did people just make up ‘God’ to have something to live for? Did the government do it? Is religion just out of fear? many people say so. It’s your choice to make.
And this is what I have been and seen in myself and continue to see in everyone. We are all the same. The only way I can be alive is having faith and hope in one thing. No one. I can depend upon no human being, not my mom, my dad, even my husband if i ever get one……I have to believe in my God. If the idea of religion is looked upon as something for the unstable feeble minded, if He is a made up theory to maintain some sort of structure in humanity, then let me be a fool. These statements have been told to me from relativists….about religion deriving from fear, and there is no religion, and you just go through life by doing what feels best to you. “it’s all relative” Relativism is just a coward’s way of not saying yes or no. Picking the middle to make everyone happy.
Our new pope, Benedict XVI says, “We are moving towards a dictatorship of relativism which does not recognize anything as for certain and which has as its highest goal one’s own ego and one’s own desires.” .
SO here is my answer. To the depressed: GET OVER YOURSELF. EVERYONE HAS PROBLEMS. get out. help others. share your experiences. Step outside of your own filth and sorrow you’ve been rolling around in for so long. Be STRONG. Do not succumb to fear, for out of fear comes anger, and out of anger comes hate. LIVE. Live for a God. The one you’ve come from. be a fool for Him and no one else. Have hope in only that. Don’t even have hope that prince charming or princess beauty will come along and sweep you off your feet. because then you are depending upon someone else for your happiness. Be happy you have LIFE. be happy you can see the color green, you can hear a symphony playing, you can sprint 100 yards and feel like you’re flying. Thank God for it. Life is all yours. Someone gave it to you. Our God did.
