jeez
As everyone else in this world, i definately have the issues. More than i thought i did. I thought a friend helped me through them…but i’m now discovering i was dragged through them while they laid dormant for that while. ALL in the meantime, i was given add-ons to the issues i’d been taking ‘help’ on. it’s pretty severe … Now, they are meshing together and creating a masterwork of issue-nesses. I wonder if i’ll ever be able to let someone know me in and out through and through. It’s a scary thought. that’s what we all want isn’t it? to share yourself, to love and be loved, to be at home. to feel at home with someone. i thought i felt that way once, at home. maybe i did. i saw the Garden State movie and was freaked out when the guy started talking about how he felt ‘like home’ with the girl he loved. I knew exactly what he was talking about and wondered if perhaps i’d passed that up.
But then i remembered. I did no passing.
i was asked today, after listening to endless complaints about females who go psycho after they start dating guys, what is the best thing and the worst thing about a guy … of course my opinion is biased towards my views of life, but my answer is that there is no ‘thing’ best or worse about a guy. i think i can confidently say that deep down, the only thing a girl wants is to be loved by a guy who will protect and spoil her, make her his world. A guy who will wait for her. Wait all his life.
if you find yourself saying, ‘i can’t wait around forever’ then no, you can’t and shouldn’t give it a second glance. GO. no reason to look back. FIND SOMEONE FOR WHOM YOU CAN AND WILL WAIT FOREVER.