wow…so it begins…the slow turn to an introvert
Or am I already there????
welp. Here I am.
It is such a wonder to realize that you haven’t truly been happy all along. I thought I was…..but there came along an experience last week when it struck me…”I have not been happy. Wow.” In this event, I did experience the honest happiness. It was wonderful and I smiled and felt excited. Maybe it was God being extremely merciful to the zillionth degree because there was something I really was going to need help getting through. After experiencing this ONE thing, I question my seemingly true feelings of the past….
I have gone through life SO blind…and I continue to. I can’t open my eyes until someone or something shows me how. Is that bad?
Is it bad that I was put into a better mood because of an email I recieved that consisted of only “hi,   ….sorry i had to.”   ????
perhaps. perhaps not.
I needed it. And that is my final answer. happiness. simple. why so hard to find?!
10:30 and I am going to bed.
I get to experience that happiness tomorrow……..

