Remember O Most Gracious Virgin Mary

 

My bed is sacred.  i drool there.  i smell there.  Mosquito nets deserve to adorn it.  Beth (Roe) let me know she has some around her bed….i am envious.  She’s a rockstar.

 My favorite painter, John Singer Sargent painted two portraits (as far as i know) titled Mosquito Nets of ladies reclining with mosquito nets acting as canopies over their heads…

the stone=stomach=jacob’s prints=the invisible (to the eye and ear) connection to mosquito nets=john singer sargent

mine’s feeling that way.

listen.  see.  shut your mouth.  seul.

 

On the plus side, I might go on a ROAD TRIP with thee one and only Caitlin BoBaitlin aaaand Amy Tuna to…..CHICAGO…..this would be a lovely event.  Never been.  Let’s hope it works out.

 

i love my sister.  glad to have her.

This weekend……..hmmm.

In one word:  wholesome.  

Family.  The important ones.  The best there is. 

I am absoultely joyously happy for my cousin Steph.  Nick fits in too perfectly.   It is truly comical.  I’ve never felt that way about any of my realitives’ boy/girlfriends before…much less my own.  When Nick is with us…I kind of wanna say, “So where you been all these years?  You’ve missed out on all our mischief, Kentucky trips, Indiana reunions, on and on and on.”     Another member of the Mafia already it seems…..though he’s still got to go through proper initiation…heh.  SOOOOO….   Bowling was fun. 

sunday.

rest.

fastest homework assignment ever.

parle. good. long. interesting. needed.

Softball. got one.

Tired yet again.

happy….                …Happy. 

SO happy the weekend is here. However there really isn’t any reason why I should be because the work does NOT end.  Just because I don’t have class does not mean I dont have to get up early or continue to work on things I’ve been working on all week, much less work at my JOB. 
And that is enough whining. ENOUGH.

I bought a vanilla soy latte after class today.  I don’t know why I did….i mean, i’m going to work in a few hours.  Why couldn’t I have waited?  I think I’m trying to see the taste difference of espresso between Starbucks and Kidd Coffee.    -AND THAT’S IT!!!

All along i have been trying to figure out the difference between the two:

Besides the STARBUCKS name, it’s the ESPRESSO.  (BY THE WAY….it is ESPRESSO, NOT expresso.  dictionary. look it up)  I think, personally, i like starbucks espresso better than Kidd’s.  However Kidd Coffee does not limit their consumers to 2-3 flavor choices….
At Kidd Coffee, if you can think of it, we probably have it…coconut, pineapple, raspberry, snickers, amaretto, snowcap….basically ANYTHING.

However…this grand range of choices often leads to confusion for the customers…“What?? tall grande? I’d like a tall grande mocha chocolate latte cafe coffee cappuccino, please…OH, fat free too…but i want whip cream and all the syrup on top as well…AND AN EXTRA SHOT”  

We are stupid, we want decisions made for us, otherwise we’d actually have to stop and think.   And so in that respect, Starbucks get’s a mark higher on my board because they know we(’)re dum…..(b).  Which “your” do I use?  What about “there”? their? they’re? there?  COME ON! YOU’RE 20 years old and you STILL CANNOT  SPELL!?!?!?!                    Anyway….. 

 

Ha. wow…..I never realized i had that much pent up irritation about coffee before.

Bored yet?

I’m not sorry.  This is for me not you.

I apologize if I offended anyone….(not really)….it’s the eSpresso talking.

HAVE A GOOD DAY PEOPLE.

It snowed and i DID NOT want to go to class today.
I put off taking a shower…which was a mistake.

I just wanted to lay in bed all day and be warm.
okay! GO!
alright seriously.
So i went.
And dang glad i did too.
green’s my favorite color you know.
Those will be the end of me.

I cannot wait for the warm weather. I want to lay and look at stars.
SOMETHING I LEARNED TODAY:

When someone points at something, do you look at the finger that points?
or at what’s beyond the finger???
Likewise, when something wonderful happens,
or even something terrible, do you linger on only the event?
Or do you look at what the sign points to?
Are you so dazzled by the finger that you fail to look further…
to where it points?

Or am I already there????

welp.  Here I am.

It is such a wonder to realize that you haven’t truly been happy all along.  I thought I was…..but there came along an experience last week when it struck me…”I have not been happy.  Wow.”  In this event, I did experience the honest happiness.  It was wonderful and I smiled and felt excited.  Maybe it was God being extremely merciful to the zillionth degree because there was something I really was going to need help getting through.  After experiencing this ONE thing, I question my seemingly true feelings of the past….

I have gone through life SO blind…and I continue to.  I can’t open my eyes until someone or something shows me how.  Is that bad?

Is it bad that I was put into a better mood because of an email I recieved that consisted of only “hi,    ….sorry i had to.”    ????

perhaps. perhaps not.

I needed it.  And that is my final answer.  happiness.  simple.  why so hard to find?!

10:30 and I am going to bed.

I get to experience that happiness tomorrow……..