Love gives you eyes June 2, 2008
Posted by mchudson in Me.trackback
There are many times in my life that I could call "AH-HA" moments. But the sad fact about most of these moments is that most of the time they arrive a bit late or they are forgotten all to quickly. This past Saturday I had an "AH-HA" moment, I saw a friend of mine for the first time, I mean really saw her, not just the way she looked, but, well I really don't know how to describe it any better than simply saying, I saw HER. Unfortunately for me the sentiment wasn't mutual, and now I have to deal with all the things that went down in those precious few minutes.
I must say though, even after all the awkwardness and empty feelings, I would still have done what I did, because had I not, I wouldn't have been given the glance that I received that night. It's funny how God uses people to show Himself and to make Himself more clear to us. This one person, in the process of a year, has been an instrument of God to show me two of the greatest insights to Him that I couldn't ever have received on my own. The first, was the yearning for another, I remember being in the presence of the Lord in the Holy Eucharist and pleading with Him, pouring my heart out to Him about this particular individual, and finally He simply let me know. I knew that this was a minor insight to how He must feel always, yearning for His beloved constantly; He yearns for me.
And of course this past Saturday, I felt quite a bit down, granted it's never bad to know the truth about a situation, but sometimes the truth hurts. Any who, God did what He does again, and opened my eyes to Him. If this is what I feel about one person turning away from me, how much more agonizing can it be to be Love itself and know that some, perhaps many, will simply turn from you and not accept the gift that is offered. I wonder if that wasn't the most difficult part for Christ in the Garden of Gethsemane, granted He would have had perfect knowledge of what He had to do and I'm sure He feared the pain that He had to endure, but to know that even after all the pain and suffering that there will still be some that He loves that will choose not to be with Him.
That's that, a little bit of me on display, hope you enjoyed it, I'm never not accepting prayers so remember me when you do what you do, later days.
God bless you and God love you
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