I've never been the best pray-er. I get distracted easily, and I can't say that I put forth the necessary effort. But today, after hearing of a friend's car accident I was thrust into deep prayer for him and his family.
I think I now understand the concept that C.S. Lewis talks about several times, mostly in the three books Problem of Pain, A Grief Observed, and Till We Have Faces, the idea of truly seeing, and really understanding. Today, when I prayed for my friends, the need was dire, the situation desperate, and God used that situation to pull me into better relationship with Him. Every word that I spoke had such weight to it, because it mattered so much. I cannot remember a time when I have quite literally spoken with God, Face-to-Face, like I did this morning. Don't get me wrong, I've spent hours in front of the Blessed Sacrament, but it wasn't Him who wasn't there, it was me.
I am quite grateful that God has shown Himself to me, and has helped me better understand Him and His ways, but I wish that I could have gotten it sooner or by another route, I wish that this accident didn't occur and that all was well, but God took this terrible thing and opened my eyes, and I hope that mine are not the only eyes opened.
Please, pray strenuously for my friends, they are going through the most difficult time of their lives right now and remember that even though you may not, God is hanging on every word you speak to Him.
God Bless You, and God Love You
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